I already had a son from my first marriage — now in his 20s, finished university, out in the world — but my husband and I wanted a child together. That wish is where this story really begins. We tried IVF. The process itself wasn't the hardest part — it was what it asked of my body. After one unsuccessful round, in our mid-40s, we had to ask ourselves a harder question: not just whether to try again, but what we were really asking of me to keep going. My husband had always ca
